Hope is still Alive!

So today was the big appointment with Dr. Honea where we ask, "Why the heck didn't this work, again?" To be honest, last Thursday I didn't have much hope left. I felt like this just would never happen for us. But a lot can happen in 1 day and in 1 week. The healing process is in full swing, and I can't say I am completely healed by any means but I definitely am feeling much better. Dr. Honea really opened our eyes today and kept hope alive! We spoke with her in her office for an hour, followed by another hour with nursing and lab work. When we walked in she asked me how I was, I responded with "very frustrated".  She replied that she felt frustrated as well cause this was such a great cycle. First off, we found out that our remaining 6 embryos can be transferred via a Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) for free since we are in the shared risk program. That is huge! We thought we could only do 1 FET and then we would have to pay to use the others. So that's a nice blessing in itself! She feels like there could be 3 different things that could have prevented pregnancy. Firstly, she thinks there could be a genetic issue with the embryos we have transferred so far. She said 50% of all embryos for someone my age are abnormal and would cause you to not be pregnant. Which is why it can take a normal fertile couple several months to achieve pregnancy on their own. She thinks we have just had an unlucky combination of genetically bad embryos if that makes sense...  She drew a picture of 8 embryos and 4 of them are bad and 4 are good. We have used 4 embryos so far and could have just used the 4 bad ones. Secondly, could be an implantation issue. We will do the scratch procedure again to help with that. There is a test they can do for an implantation issue but is expensive and not completely accurate so she said if next round doesn't work we will do the test. Lastly, she said some people just don't get pregnant on fresh IVF cycles for unknown reasons, but can be due to the estrogen/progesterone balance from a fresh cycle and the stress the egg retrieval can put on your body and some people just get pregnant with frozen cycles instead of fresh. She also mentioned possibly doing another fresh IVF cycle and doing PGD (genetics) on the embryos if this next FET doesn't work and we will know if there is something wrong with the embryos. Even though our embryos look perfect as far as the grade goes, that still doesn't mean they are good genetically. Another fresh cycle would also be included in the shared risk program so that would also be a nice blessing. They also checked my blood for some auto immune disorders and my thyroid levels to make sure there isn't something weird going on! So what's next?? We will do a frozen embryo transfer when my next period comes which should be in about 3 weeks or so. The frozen cycle is very short compared to a fresh cycle. I will take estrogen pills for about 9 days then progesterone shots for 6 days then do the transfer. We will use the best 2 frozen embryos we have and hopefully they will survive the thawing process and the others will remain frozen. Dr. Honea said we do not need to panic by any means and are no where near talking about other alternatives such as adoption or surrogacy. So we left with our heads lifted and some hope that maybe our dream will still happen! Thanks for all the encouraging words last week, we read every one of them and we are so blessed and thankful to have so many people praying with us and rooting for us! God remains faithful and good to us and we will continue to trust and believe in His plans for our life! I realize some of this post may be confusing to those who don't know much about this process but I will try to break it all down as we get to it in the process! :)