6dp5dt

So today I am 6 days post the embryo transfer. Boy how things change in a few days! I woke up yesterday feeling so anxious! I was having to take deep breaths cause it was so bad! I prayed for a while and blasted some worship music and felt better. Then had a girls day with my sister and relaxed! We got facials, pedicures, lunch and decaf coffee! It was a much needed day to relax! I feel like a go from elated with happiness to depressed and anxious in a matter of minutes! I'm sure those nasty progesterone shots are the culprit! Then I woke up again this morning feeling so anxious. I felt like I was about to burst out crying any minute! I was just so freaked out thinking "what if it didn't work this time? What if I'm not pregnant again?" I started working myself up into a frenzy about it. Then it was like I heard God whisper to me "Do you not Trust me enough, Stacy?" Well of course I trust God! But when we allow our minds to become overwhelmed with fear and anxiety we are letting God know that we don't trust him enough. It is so easy to trust God when things are going great and everything is wonderful and working out to "our plan" but do we really trust God enough in the times when we feel fearful and anxious and feel like things aren't going to work out to our plan and our desires. Trusting God is trusting in His plan and His timing. We are all human and we all feel anxious and worry, but it's in those times when we truly need to put our faith and trust in Him! So this afternoon I really do feel much better! I am choosing to trust God in His timing even if it's not what I am hoping and praying so hard for this time! As for how I'm feeling otherwise, I had some cramping and low back pain this morning which is totally from the progesterone and I've got heartburn so bad I could breath fire but other than that I feel good. God has got this, now I've got to remember that even when I'm anxious! 3 more days left till we find out! Stay tuned!